Posts Tagged ‘pain’

Not so mighty fibromite

October 24, 2009 2 comments

I’m really discouraged today.  I woke up stiff with a band of pain around my abdomen about kidney height.  And anxious as all hell.  The lists of foods and food categories that are safe and unsafe are spinning around in my head like Dorthy’s twister.

I need to get a grip on myself.

This corn thing is much more overwhelming than the gluten.  How I’m going to go about this is beyond me at the moment…except to say for today, I can eat oatmeal, sweet potato, chicken and veggies.  Basically.  That can be my diet for today.  I don’t think there is anything bad in these things (my oatmeal is GF).  I could probably find many things wrong with the chicken but I’m drawing a line.

And if the truth be told, I ate pepper jack cheese last night like I was flipping off a stranger.  Boldly and aggressively even while knowing it was wrong and I would feel shitty later.  Sigh…

Oh, and get this.  When I was taking tramadol for my fibromyalgia it would work less and less so I’d take more and more.  (any addict will tell you how that works!)  The last couple of years I took 6 pills a day.  And still had pain.  And brain fog up the butt.  This last spring I went slowly off the tramadol and felt tremendously better.  I am still taking the hydrocodone but it works really well and I have little to no side effects.  Except dependency but I can deal with that.

Anyway…….I googled tramadol and guess what the first “inert” ingrediant is?  Cornstarch!  I could not find any evidence of cornstarch in the hydrocodone.

This is crazy…

So all signs point to corn and it’s devil spawn of derivatives.  Last night I went through the cupboard telling Kevin in an increasingly rising voice, “oh god, this has corn in it, this has corn in it, etc, etc.”  Until he suggested I might want to calm down.

Just for today (thank you AA) I know I can eat unprocessed meat (if there is such a thing), vegetables (except nightshades) and fruits (except citrus).  That’s not too complicated, is it?

I’ve gotta laugh or I’m gonna cry…..


Addendum to Ugg..

October 23, 2009 Leave a comment

You know, maybe it would be good to re-read my own blog.  I decided to hit the tag “pain” and read the entries…maybe there was a clear pattern.

Yeah, whatever, because my entry dated the 15th of this month (found here) talks all about the pain I had from tomatoes.  Seriously.

Okay so note to self.  You can NOT eat TOMATOES, Jacki!!!


Ugg…I fibro’d myself

October 23, 2009 Leave a comment

All three kids were here last night for dinner so I wanted to make something special  (and cheap).  So I picked up some beef ribs and decided to make my own bbq-like sauce.  I’ve been doing so well that I got a little cocky thinking I could probably try making a tomato based sauce.  And if it’s done from scratch it would probably be safe.


It tasted okay, nowhere near as sweet and mellow as cheap store bought.  Man, they must have a ton of sugars in theirs.  The kids and Kevin liked it and the ribs were snarfed up in short order.

Then I woke up this morning.  And guess what?  Fibromyalgia…all over.  It’s kinda amazing if it didn’t feel so crappy.  A generous serving of tomato sauce and it causes my whole body to ache and be stiff.

The score is nightshade plants 1, Jacki 0.

At least it was a clear reaction and not one of those vague “I don’t feel too good but that’s about it” reactions.  So…no more tomatoes.  And that should probably go for potatoes and peppers.

Fine with me.  Now all I have to do is work this out of my system.  Ugg.

Cheaters never prosper

October 15, 2009 2 comments

Food cheaters, that is.  I didn’t so much cheat as just try something new…a challenge to the Diet Experiment.  Last night we had burritos with homemade salsa.


But man that salsa was good.  Ramsey and I made it…she was my little food processor since she can stir tomatoes with a spoon until they give up all their juice.  It was freshly made from chopped tomatoes (red and yellow), chopped green onions, chopped cilantro, olives and green chilis.  Hmmm…chilis, that’s in the nightshade family, too.  To the veggie mix we added cumin, chili powder, sea salt and a little bit of agave.


When I put my burrito together I used rice tortillas, refried beans (from freshly cooked pintos), a little hamburger (that was cooked in more tomato sauce), a little cheddar cheese (dairy), lettuce and salsa.

So really the tally of forbidden foods is more like this:

  • Dairy from the cheese
  • Tomato from salsa AND hamburger (nightshade plant)
  • Green chilis in the salsa (nightshade plant)

This morning I woke up with a groan.  The pain isn’t too bad, probably a 5 out of 10, but it such a familiar and unpleasant feeling.  Body stiffness and general achey-ness.  Not worth it.

As a side note, yesterday I woke up with a rash on my forehead and my scalp is really itchy.  I tried some new “organic” shampoo…it’s probably made out of corn or something.  Did I read the label?  No.   That print is so small.  But I’m not going to use it again.

I have this morning to get my sh*t together because Jacob’s caseworker is coming over at 2:30 to go through his yearly Service Plan.  Ugh…an hour or more talking about what he can’t do.  Not my favorite.

Gotta eat clean today and get myself back on track.  I’m really beginning to think rice might need to go off the list.  Or at least be like soy and eggs where I try not to eat very much but allow little bits through because not to would be an extra level of vigilance that I’m just not ready to attempt.

It’s a learning thing.  But no cheating for today.

Two steps forward and one step back

October 13, 2009 Leave a comment

It started at 4:00 am with the beginnings of a migraine.  And muscle spasms in my neck.  I’ve been pushing it, I know.  For dinner last night I had a stir fry with golden rice.  I think the rice might just be too much carb.  I also started eating gluten free oats which may be giving me some kind of trouble.  Though I ate it again for breakfast before I put that together.

So it’s been one of those migrainey days where I feel punched out.  Sigh…

To lift my spirits this afternoon, I tried out a recipe for Buckwheat Chocolate Chip Cookies from Karina’s Kitchen.  I put in walnuts and pecans along with the Enjoy Life Chocolate Chips. They taste great!  Totally chocolate chippy.  I ate three big cookies while they were still warm.  Nummy.

The Enjoy Life company makes foods gluten free and “free of the eight most common allergens.  They contain NO wheat, dairy, peanuts, tree nuts, egg, soy, fish or shelfish.”  Thank you to them!

So I’m really dragging my butt along today and will keep this short.  It was a crappy day but, as it happens so often, saved by cookies.

I am getting strong

October 12, 2009 2 comments

As you might have read, yesterday started out a little funky.  But as I did my stretches and got limbered up for the day, the kinks started to work themselves out.  Oh well, with a little help from my pain pills, too.

Here’s the amazing part…amazing to me anyway…I started to do laundry.  Then I worked in my studio.  In the afternoon I went for a l-o-n-g walk; the kind of walk I used to take before I got sick.  I’ll bet it was a couple of miles.  Miles!  This blows me away.

In the late afternoon I jumped in the van and scooted up to the South side to Huckleberry’s Market.  It’s pretty pricey but they have the biggest health food/specialty food selection.  I wanted something bread-like.  I had made lima beans with pork the day before and Kevin’s bread looked mighty tempting.  I bought japanese mochi and rice tortillas.  I baked up some mochi and ate it with my beans.  Not bad…I could grow to like them more.  Meghan, my only daughter, tried the tortillas.  She pronounced them edible; a little more chewy than wheat tortillas.  That’s actually a pretty good review since she is very selective about what she will eat.

By the end of the day I must have put through about 8 loads of laundry…all folded.  Only my closest friends will know what a shocker this is.

How am I doing today?  Pretty damn good.  I slept well and woke up a bit stiff.  In between my shoulder blades is bothering me but only about a 4 out of 10 which is okay.  My body is sore from the long walk but that’s to be expected because I am 53 and have been sick for 4 years.

So this morning, I got Jacob ready and off to work, ate gluten free oatmeal for breakfast and went to work in the studio.  It’s noon now and I’m ready for a break and a bit of a rest and then back at it.

Another good day.

Something got me yesterday

October 11, 2009 Leave a comment

Not really bad.  But enough to make it into my dreams.  Since I’ve been diagnosed with FM I’ve had nighttime bears clawing me, lions biting me and a host of weird situations reflecting my sleeping pain.  Last night, my dream hips would not work; everywhere I needed to go (urgently) was like walking through thigh high slush.  Fortunately I discovered a way to get around by sliding backwards on my rear dragging my useless legs along.  That part wasn’t too bad as each slide got longer and smoother until it felt like I was flying along…backward.


What got me yesterday?  I had no obviously big deviations from the diet.  In fact, it was my brother’s birthday breakfast and I entered a restaurant for the first time since starting the Diet Experiment.  I studied my options and came up with the idea of eating before I went and just having tea once I got there.  That worked.

But then Jacob and I got in the van to go home and it wouldn’t start.  Argh… Kevin was home and on his way in a matter of minutes.  Leaving Jake and I sitting in a cold car staring at his leftover box.  I knew there was bacon inside…I could smell it.  So I ate it. (I asked politely first…but Jacob is pretty easy.)

We got home and I felt no ill effects from the single bacon strip.  Okay. So far so good, I hoped.

Dinner planning was for a celebration.  Kevin got notice of not one but TWO parts he’s been cast in!  We decided on steaks.  Beef steaks all around and I skipped the potatoes.  Had a green salad with some new dressing.  It was a vinaigrette with basalmic vinegar and it was organic and the ingredients didn’t list anything really bad.  Except “organic sugar” and “organic spices”.  Kinda vague.

So what was it that got me?  Dietary?  Corn in the bacon processing or maybe the nitrites? Something in that dressing…that tasted so sweet?  Or was it mechanical since I’m working on painting three full sized papers; they are on my dining room table (my studio is too messy) and it’s just the wrong height.  I have to bend over just slightly and reach as I paint.

Well…there’s nothing to do today but stretch it out, stay aware and watch my food.  It’s still only about a 5 or 6 out of 10 but I’m greedy these days.  I’ve had so many great days with pain hanging around a 3 that I don’t like going back at all!  So we’ll see how it goes today.