Posts Tagged ‘craving’

Restorative sleep??!!

October 14, 2009 3 comments

This is still utterly amazing to me.  I went to bed last night after feeling crappy all day…migraine, low energy, some body aches.  My sleep was deep and restful and I woke up feeling good…even though it is raining outside! This blows me away.  For the past 4+ years a bad day was always part of a larger flare up.  Like three bad days in a row, three bad weeks in a row, and last winter, three bad months in a row.

I really needed those chocolate chip cookies 🙂

This whole experience has got me thinking about the nature of fibromyalgia.  There are so many related and overlapping conditions; chronic fatigue, Crohn’s, IBS, MS, lupus just to name a few.  I’ve been tested for neurological and immune system dysfunction with all my tests coming back normal.  In spite of that I’ve grown to believe FM is probably a neurological condition having to do with neurotransmitter regulation.  I know my neurotransmitters are screwed up from having PTSD and chronic depression (long story for another time).

But why would this diet make such a difference?  I’m eating more nutritionally for sure so that has to help my body work more efficiently.  What if FM is a problem of neurotransmitters AND immune system dysfunction?  I know this; the more pain I’ve been in, the more I crave carbs and sweets, the more I eat them, the more pain I’m in.

Or, what if the hypersensitivity that is a hallmark of fibromyalgia extends to the immune system in this way; foods that might previously given me some trouble now become big problems because my immune system is hypersensitive?  By eating a carefully controlled diet I can remove a lot of the food reactions and thereby reduce the overall effect of FM on my body.  Hmmmm…interesting.

I’m reading a new book called Twinkie, Deconstructed by Steve Ettlinger.  He researched the processed food industry by studying the ingredients in a Twinkie.  It’s fascinating and also kinda gross.  And it makes me wonder what all we are doing to ourselves with our American diets.

I feel a cause coming on.

In the meantime, I’ll just keep on tweaking my diet and trying to learn more about processed foods, whole foods, organic foods…and cookies.


A gluten challenge

October 7, 2009 1 comment

On Monday night, I decided to try a gluten challenge.  To isolate it further I used barley instead of wheat.  Using the wheat might show a wheat sensitivity but not clear up the gluten question.

Yeah, I’m almost like a scientist.

So it was pork chops and cauliflower with barley.  It went down all right but I thought I noticed an increase in pain later in the evening.  Nothing substantial yet.  I went to sleep and started waking up in the wee hours with hip pain.  This hasn’t happened since I did the corn challenge.  When I got up, I felt like crap.  (okay, maybe I’m not a real scientist)

The crappy feeling got mixed up with the whole dog issue yesterday but I still feel like I had a reaction to the barley.  Plus, my bowels got messed up.  Let’s just leave it at that.

So that’s gluten.  Oddly, the reaction wasn’t as painful as the corn challenge.  Interesting.  And corn is in everything!  I’m just going to do my best with the corn and try not to make myself crazy (crazier) eradicating every little bit of corn in my life.  Since I don’t seem to be having an traditional allergic reaction with asthma, hives, etc, I think I’ve got some leeway.

On to food and comfort.  Yesterday I was feeling sad and I wanted some comfort.  And I knew I had to eat pretty clean because the gluten was working it’s way out. In the afternoon I finished off the last piece of Quinoa Cake with coconut milk. For dinner it was sweet potato with Smart Balance margarine and cinnamon.  I’m using the Smart Balance but it has soy, soy and soy in it.  So far, I haven’t found a good substitute and yesterday I wasn’t in the mood to skip it.  By bedtime I was tired and sad and needy.  So I broke out my Pamela’s Pancake Mix and made some pancakes.  Just little ones.  With more Smart Balance and agave syrup.  They were okay but had that extra “this certainly doesn’t taste like a regular pancake” flavor.  Sigh…

It could have been worse.  I don’t like to be sad (duh) and have always used something to get through it.  So last night it was sugar/carbs.  How am I feeling this morning?  Not great but I don’t have a lot of body pain.  That’s pretty good.

I’m glad I let myself (and my diet) bend instead of break.  Today will be a better day because of it.

Well, there goes that promise

October 2, 2009 2 comments

Sorry I didn’t do a recipe update like I said I would yesterday.

In my defense I will say that I had several interactions with my mother…which usually results in eating a batch of cookies and/or a quart of ice cream.  Well, I don’t have these things available anymore so I had to actually cry.

What is the world coming to?

My mother is very old, very sick, and very frustrating.  She loves me and my sibs the best she can…and most of the time that just creates confusion.  Whattya going to do?  I only have one mom and she’s not going to last forever so I just am trying to walk through it a step at a time.

Okay, back to food.

Yesterday I was so hungry.  Not so much the kind of hungry you get after skipping some meals…which I didn’t.  No, it was hunger for something comforting, filling, mothering (I guess).  Quinoa and hummus would not fit the bill.  Yesterday was the day before payday and we were pretty broke so I had $10 to spend on dinner for the four of us.

Off to Albertsons.  Definitely not the health food store.  But I found some beef round steak on sale cheap and picked up five.  Then to the veggies where I got a head of cauliflower.  Not organic and it makes such a difference.  But I was in no shape to go all around town. Last but not least, I splurged on some portabella mushrooms.  Total spent?  $11.60…HA!

Beefy, mushroomy dreams began as I drove home.

So the menu looked like this:

  • Beef strips and mushrooms in gravy
  • Mashed potatoes
  • Roasted cauliflower

Yes, I said potatoes.  I thought I would go with a food challenge that shouldn’t do me in.  The roasted cauliflower was a recipe I got from Gluten Free Goodness, an excellent food blog that I must remember to put in my links. She cooks with no gluten, dairy, soy, eggs or corn.

Anyway…I made the potatoes with vegan margarine (which is disappointingly full of soy) and hemp milk since it is a little more creamy than rice milk.  I find the hemp milk has a stronger taste but it couldn’t affect the mashed potato taste so it worked beautifully.

I’m going to try and approximate the beef recipe because it was good!

Beef Strips and Portabello Mushrooms

  • 3 lbs of round steak (Yes, this is a wild guess.  Just get enough round steak for your family.)
  • 1 cup sliced portabello mushrooms
  • 1/2 to 1 cup brown rice flour (which is the only usable flour I had in the house)
  • 1/4 scant cup seasoning mix.  I used two kinds of Mrs. Dash.  But as I say that, I’ll bet it has corn in it somewhere.  Argh!

I used my big soup pot/dutch oven type pan.  This recipe would work even better in a crock pot but I was pressed for time.  I cut the round steak into strips.

In a bowl I mixed the flour and seasoning salt together.  Here’s the place to improvise.  Got some rosemary?  Try it.  Your family loves Italian?  Throw in some Italian seasoning.  I think I also put a dash of cayenne in the mix.

A big handful at a time I put the beef strips in the flour mix to coat.  Then into the hot pan with some canola oil.  I would have preferred olive oil, though it might have been too hot for olive oil.  But we are out of it.  So canola oil it was.

I fried up the beef strips…and there were a LOT of strips.  The flour thickened the juices nicely.  When the strips were about cooked through I put in the mushrooms and soon thereafter, I put in some water (just about 1/3 cup) to extend the gravy and salt/pepper to taste.  Then let it get all warm and bubbly and thick.

Mash the taters, and serve the meat over them.  Hits the spot.

And how did I fare with the potatoes?  Not too good.  It wasn’t shocking but I started to wake up from body pain in the wee hours.  Getting up this morning I feel sore and stiff and my throat feels sting-y (yeah, I’m so technical).  But it’s also raining outside so I have to figure that in.

In the end I’d have to say that potatoes are do-able but in small amounts and not with any other marginal foods like cheese and egg.  Seems like my two lists, Can eat and Can not eat, are morphing into three.  The new one called “Can probably eat a little bit without too much problem but don’t try and push it.”  I think potato is on this list.

So there you are.  At least it’s a recipe finally.  Even though you had to wade through some mother issues to get there.

Success at last!

September 23, 2009 2 comments

Well, just when I was about to give up hope that anything I can bake now will taste decent I make a good banana bread.  Whew!  I used the recipe at called Banana Bread #4.  I made it with my great niece, Ramsey who is just a dandy little baker.

Can’t write more now because I’ve caught a cold and took care of Ramsey and ate a ton all day.  More tomorrow.

I’ll dream of warm delicious banana bread 🙂

A small miracle

September 17, 2009 Leave a comment

I woke up this morning to rain.  So what? you ask.  Well, rain and fibromyalgia bodies do not go good together.  In fact I’ve been known to wake up and just start crying when the weather takes a turn for the worse.

Today…not so much.  My neck is messed up (but that is really a different problem of herniated disks) but my body is remarkably free from the usual rain-ache.  This is a BIG difference!  A huge difference!!

It gives me so much hope for the upcoming weather change.  This was one of my main motivators in starting the diet experiment…we had a few days of cool wet weather in August which set me off on a flare for a week.  Ouch.  Of course I’m seeing now that when I get in pain I want to eat sugar, carbs and wheat.  I mean super craving, get outta my way, walk to the store in a storm kind of way.  When I eat whatever it is, then the body pain increases, which leads to more craving, etc, etc.

I’m sure you get it.

Get out the hemp protein drinks, fellas…mama’s got a brand new plan!